If It Wasn’t For God….

Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

2 Corinthians 12:8-10

Be content in times of weakness.This doesn’t mean to settle in and enjoy it. It means to recognize that God is working wonders through it. So many times we face trials,tribulation,stress, and we are in need of something so bad, we face persecution and we wonder where God is. I can testify and tell you that truly in everything we go through good or bad our Father is looking down on us and  has got our back nomatter what.

So growing up a pastor’s child I had no doubt whatsoever that God is looking down on  me . But nothing in this life is ever guaranteed as life is always throwing things at us  both good and bad. I was born in an average family not rich not poor we just survived. There was a certain time when I was in fifth grade at Queensdale Primary.

Things were so bad financially that I would leave the house for school not even knowing what  the people at home would have for lunch or what we were to eat for dinner. I remember my little dresses were all old and with worn out shoulders and I had to weasr my jersey the whole time so no one sees it. My beautiful mother had to sew the shoulders which would tore like  almost everyday . This was because of the dresses being old and the friction caused by my backpack straps.

This did not stop me froim being the vibrant and energetic little girl I was but it ate my father up. He took my hand with tears in his eyes one day and asked me  ‘’So what do you think of this God  who I serve and who called me yet you are going to school in a torn uniform’’. Up until this day I am shocked at my response the same way my own  father was shocked. ‘’Hanti munoti Mwari wenyu anonzwa anokomborera so achatikomborera’’ that’s saying ‘’you preach that God hears and he blesses so he will bless us ‘’.

I didn’t question why but I was sure that my God would see us through.In every season ,in every circumstance his grace is sufficient. During all the difficulties I have learnt that  even when we can’t understand why, we should be thankful and  it will open our eyes and mend our hearts in a way we never imagined.

I know what it feels like being that child who is not going to the field trip because her parents can’t afford it, having that plain sandwhich during break when others have ham, going for years without new clothes or shoes. I am familiar with being home and when all your friends are starting college and Uni because there is no money at home.

That really didn’t stop me from aiming higher because I knew and still know that my God is able to do abundantly,exceedingly above all that I could think of or ever imagine. It has only made stronger and more focused. I have just only started the world is not ready for me yet. No misfortune ,mishap or bad experience can stop you from making it in this life .You just have to want it to have it..Like my friend Pineapple always says ,”You owe yourself the life you crave for.”

God’s grace carried me through the bad days ,it carried me through college and by grace I will carry on. Trust God through it all and one day you will look back with tears of joy and gratitude and sing thus far the Lord has taken me. Through it all I have learnt that the  will of God will never take you where his grace can not find you. His grace is with you nomatter what.

I did not write this to prove that God answers prayers, which he does but just to show that I am a living monument of grace . I do not understand the mystery of grace , but I know it meets us were we are and it sure doesn’t leave us there.

Whatever you are going through there is nothing too big for the man uphigh.I am thankful for so many things but most importantly God because without him by my side where would I be.

If it wasn’t God where would I be?



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